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Name: Jonathan
Location: Denton, Texas, United States
Birthday: 3/6/1985
Gender: Male
Interests: Free thinking, music, playing music, making music, movies, drum loops, concerts, philosophies, religions, learning but not being tested on it, reading, eating, pretending I can cook, dane cook, mitch hedburg, pablo francisco (to name a few funny men)
Expertise: Apologizing, guitar stuff sorta, computers to an extent, being lost, feeling like crap, wasting my life in cyberspace, being a clutz, i know alot about drugs but it doesn't mean that i've taken alotta drugs, almost being great, but falling short...
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AIM:  GodefroyBoy4
Member Since:
1/23/2004
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| i can't calm the voices long enough to breath.
the sad thing is they're my own conjured up voices that chain me down.
i create them so i can feel sorry for myself.
the sad thing is i don't even feel sorry for myself anymore
all i can say is you're pathetic for letting yourself get to you
you have no depression, you can't honestly say there's anything wrong in your life.
to say that there was would only bring yourself lower in my eyes
i don't want your pity, i don't want you to feel sorry for me and say i'm lost
i can't handle this day, tomorrow i'll be ready to conquer the world
today i'm at the bottom of the bottle, the water ring below the bottle
i'm the mildew that festers in the rotten wood below the bottle that crushes me
i'm beset by my own inconsistencies and shortcomings... i'm beside myself
staring at what a worthless shell i am today. there's no saving grace on this day
not on what you are today... not before your stealthy brain can call this a fart, a fluke, an
accidental set back... what is your redeeming factor, how are you going to get past this
what is my redeeming factor...
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| Hey homies... so its spring break and so far its been kind of complicated but good nonetheless. How about yourselves? Talk to me! so i'm in jasper been workin' with the parents a bit. ya know hangin' with the fam. and chillin' with friends kinda, you know just hangin', until things get back to normal. Things are king of at a transition phase of things right now. I'm gonna be movin' out of my house fairly soon and getting a job (for real thistime) and just kinda movin towards a different POV of life (point of view, that is. i've realized the difference between experience and knowledge and application of said idea towards yet another aspect of my life so. So any knowledge of said idea i will reveal to you all and whatnot. well i'm about to watch a movie and kind of just hang with joe/val i'll talk to y'all later. PEACE | | |
| so taste of chaos was AWESOME ... i had great fun... gotta love seein the Deftones, i know I did!! had a good amount of friends that were there too so that was pretty nice and i didn't have to sit by myself, i just left my seat and sat in some vacant seats near my friends... ok so my friend went and some chick grabbed his butt on the way out... like when the concert over so there were like 30000 people being stupid... anyways he went and found her cuz he caught a glimpse and goes up to talk to her and they exchanged numbers and whatnot... how does he do this?? i don't get how happenings like this occur... i'm sure they're hook up and do whatever kids do these days........ not mystyle... i'll stay how am i am far from the STD infested corner of my house... he's a cool guy and everything i'm just not the type to be so free... i'll keep mine... anyways... skipped 2 out of my 3 classes today... i felt under the weather... not to mention the weather was so frickin' lame today...worse day ever... i never thought i'd say it but i need some sun and non rainyness to function when i'm already feelin like crap... ugh... well my homeboy dennis is back in california to continue his military training... sadness.... i wish i could find my place... i am so lost in this metroplex... "whats wrong with me? where the heck do i belong?......... (marie) "right heeeere"" sorry little Everybody Loves Raymond humor...anyhoo... i guess i'm gonna go sit in my sinus congested stupor in my so unbelieveably disgusting and pathteic excuse of a home
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| So i just got back to denton, i went and hung with dennis since he just got back from bootcamp and probably gonna do the same this time and yeah i dunno make money cuz i have 3.48 to my name... "
so anyways
HAPPY V-DAY day to all you and i hope you get to spend yours with a special someone. unfortunately i still have not had that luxury but i will get to spend it with some really awesome friends so thats the next best thing, cept first i have to clea up the house so it seems special...which this entails cleaning up other people's crap... *grumble* and with that 3.48 buying a vat of dish soap.................................
so i've been listening to imogen heap lately...she's really chilled out and technoey and not my normal hardcore music but she's fun to chill to when i can't think of anything else to listen to ... and then the new finch cd is my fav. to listen to right now...
6 days to taste of chaos!!! wooo i can't wait to go and rock out BY MYSELF!!! *gun to head* but whatev. maybe i'll hang out and meet new people and whatnot.... DEFTONES AND ATREYU here i come.
boo for 2 frackin' tests this week... i guess thats all for now... you'all have a great vday
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| So the other day i got a ton of music from tanner, like 20 cds on my computer, w/o having to burn or rip them... so thats cool, i got this and new ax7, muse, alot of floyd, armor for sleep, aerosmith, a dozen furies, fall out boy, ya know all this stuff that he has cuz he dls... there's alot more but yeah thats all i feel like looking for... 20 days until TASTE OF CHAOS!!! WOOOOOOOOO man i'm totally psyched, its gonna be awesome...and then 10 days before that dennis graduates from boot camp so i'll get to hang with him... 34 days from now i turn 21... watch out... busy next month or so... and then it'll be time for me to get a job... fo sho... spring break's in there some where... A Place Between Stars rocked Hailey's last night and i got pictures and they'll go up soon... and already up are like 80 pictures from christmas break... some good ones... so check em... oh and i'm probably gonna be trying to collaborate with matt again to put some rock tunes together and maybe do some shows... that'll be fun hopefully... i know as strange as it may be, we've been keeping the house clean, which doesn't ever happen... well except for the sink cuz our water's still messed up, but the kitchen/living room is farely in order and my room is as good as i can get it... whenever i get a little bit more money, i'm gonna put my bed on some cinder blocks so i can stuff crap underneath my bed... that'll help too... i wish i was cool and like could make a loft that'd be swank... but such is not the case... oh oh i got new clothes today! for the first time in like 10285980750481 years... well actually in truthfully since last christmas with my last sears gift card...but last year i spent it on a nice jacket and some dress clothes so it doesn't count...this year i got like clothes to wear daily... i have mostly the same wardrobe from highschool with no additions... and i got some new shoes *yes* non-stinky whole shoes, no sole-less shoes and/or toe peek-a-boo... well anyway, i'd say thats a pretty decent update for once... some actually things to say... *shrug* peace and love to my homies that actually still check my stuff
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